I always start all of my projects off with good intentions.... it's just that sometimes things happen in life that get me side tracked. This blog is one of them. Motherhood is another of them. My schooling is another of them.
I've come to the realization that I have been throwing myself into my schooling much more than I should be, and because of that a few years have gone by without some very important things being done. Namely, being "Mom". Unfortunately, I have put being a student ahead of the things I feel are important for me to do as a mother for my children. Little things like being there for important events, putting more effort into their birthdays, putting more thought and efforts into our summer vacations, decorating my girls rooms to fit their personalities, teaching them all to sew and to garden and to be creative and crafty. I want to teach them all to cook and make meals for the family. I've paid a price for convenience and given up a lot of things that were important for them to learn.
I haven't had any time to do things I enjoy, like sew, garden, grow things, paint, draw, write, photograph, read fun books. I seem to only have enough energy to throw myself 100% into one thing at a time.
So now, after my finals on Wednesday, I begin to try to figure out how to do things well, but not at 100%. I want to be a good student and get good grades. I want to study the scriptures for my own knowledge. I want to spend time creating things that are beautiful or useful. I want to be Mom, and be a good one.
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