Okay

I had some diagnostic stuff done this month, and I'm glad I did. I got initiated into the 40 and up women's club and had a mammogram done, that came back clear. I also had a tube down my throat to discover why I'm having pain in my abdomen and why food gets stuck, etc. I posted about that before this post. I'm back on my happy pills so I'm feeling more relaxed.

We are still trying to sell our other house. It's getting discouraging for me. It's been on the market for almost a year now and things in our home are getting so tight I'm having to sell off some of my most prized photography things. This makes me feel really sad. I'm glad I have my medications to help me through this, or I'd be a complete wreck.  Especially since I'm having a shooting bug again, and I haven't had it in so long, I never thought it would come back.Today I sold one of my favorite lenses. It was hard to let go of it but I have so many bills going unpaid now, there's really no other option at this point.

I know it was the right thing to do to move our family here. I know this is where we need to be. I just don't know what lesson I'm supposed to get from all the trouble and problems we are having selling our other house. If giving up my photography helps us stay here, then I guess that's what I have to do. I just wish it wasn't so painful. Didn't someone once say, "no pain, no gain"? Maybe that's what I have to go through to earn the peace and joy I feel here.

I have another showing on Saturday. Maybe this will be the buyer we've been needing! I hope!